How do you get past the grief? I have lost my brother. My baby brother. Someone that is so close to my soul that I feel like my heart has a tremendous hole in it. How can I explain how much I loved my brother? He is the one that I got in trouble with. I was Lois Lane, he was Superman. We watched westerns together. (Our dad loved them) Remember "Sugar Foot"? And "The Rebel"? We loved it when "The Avengers" came on......We got "sent to our rooms" together, and swore we'd "never go back down there!" "We'd show them!"
Why do I feel that I need a sign from him that he is "OK"? He had so many kids that loved him. At his services, every person that I talked to said "he was my favorite teacher". I still need him. I need to hug him. I need to tell him again how much I love him. He is part of me. And I can be around hundreds of people and feel lost and alone. My brother passed September 9, 2007. He fought pancreatic cancer for seven long years. And he never gave up.
I will get back to writing about art. And my loves polymer clay and beading. But please excuse my need to grieve. This first week or so, this blog may be the center of my grief.
A special thanks to those who have supported me most through this. My husband who is everything. My sister....she is the only one who knows how I feel. Three of my best buds...Cindy Celusta, Lynda Gilcher and Kimberly Arden. I love you guys for being there.
Kathy,
You have such a wonderful family. I would like to thank you for sharing them with me. I felt as if I knew Tom through your sharing and love. I know that he had to know your love and support especially thru the last years. Bet he counted those early memories (Lois Lane/Superman LOL)just as important as you do too.
Grief is difficult. Forever you are changed by the loss of a loved one. Period. As soon you can dance again, (and by this I mean...live fully)the more you will feel Tom along side of you dancing. I believe he is there now helping you cope with the loss of him.
Welcome back to blogging. You have been missed.
I love you. May God always hold you in the Palm of His hand.
Cindy
Posted by: Cindy Celusta | October 25, 2007 at 08:13 AM